blurry.

I have these goals, these idealistic images inside my head, but sometimes I feel like they are a little blurry. This all is just planning and thinking now, but one day I'll have to act instead of thinking. Not like I am not doing anything now. I do. I struggle for this distant vague goals, but from time to time I get terrified, wondering: what on Earth will I do if all my directions turn out to be false? where will I be? what, damn it, what will I become?

I will be lost in the middle of the ocean. Will be left to drown.


That's horrifying.